Wallowing = Defeat

Don't give in! To wallow is to surrender! Get out there and do stuff! Earn some cash! Have some laughs! Run around! Leap, jump, skip, stretch, race, swim, do whatever it takes. It'll take your mind off whatever it is that is bumming you out. I know it's torture to think of going out and doing stuff when all you want to do is have a crying breakdown in the bathroom and then, sniffing loudly mosey on over to the kitchen to eat those out-of-it comfort food items. It's not some much eating, as inserting. It can be cake batter, cookie dough, ice cream, chocolates - anything sweet to show people that if they don't care about you then you don't care about yourself (so HA). Go and see a movie. Get up out of the house. Visit the library. Hand out free packs of gum to people on the street. Do a "Free Hugs" ritual. Strike up conversations with anyone willing enough. Meet up with friends. Hug a little harder, smile a little wider and laugh freely. Don't let that one little aspect that's nagging and eating at you, draining you of all energy succeed. Prove it wrong to the point where it was ridiculous to have the option of wallowing as a fathomable choice. I know it's miserable and horrid and you can't stand to be around the harsh people of the world. The people who bump into you without saying sorry. The people who flip you off for 'cutting them off'. The people who stand one or two people in front of you in line and then gets the last of whatever you were dearly hoping for (had centered your whole eating routine around for the day). The people who can't stand to pay a compliment to anyone but themselves (sincerely anyway) for the life of them. All you want to do is sit and cry to thin air or people you've fallen apart in front of. You want to eat in big quantities to fill up the hollow space inside you and you want to never see people from your past - your contaminated past with whatever drove you to this state - again. It'll only bring back the pain. Don't leave others just because they were present when everything went wrong. If you still want to be with them, and they still want to be with you, don't let another force come between you. Don't let anyone or thing or cause stop you from doing what you would love to do if you were 'feeling better'. That's like winning first place in the Oylmpics and stepping down and giving back the medal, because I mean, your mom wanted you to go to law school.